Not long ago I was thinking “If I can just get to 175 again, back to my New York weight, when I walked everywhere, I’ll be happy with that.” Not any more. I’m already 5lbs away from that.

I struggled to get back there for 4 years with all kinds of insane exercise regimes. Cathe’s Boot Camp 4 days a week and biking and walking all at the same time. I would have done Biggest Loser proud. Nothing. Now I’m almost there in 20 days. That’s 3/4 of a pound a day. Do I doubt I’ll be in the 170s by Saturday? I would be shocked if I weren’t at least 179.

So that goal weight of 175 seems silly now.  Should the new goal be 150, 25lbs less and 20lbs lighter than I’ve ever been?  Even if the current rate slows by half, I’d reach that goal by the end of March. So 130 by June? I have no idea what I’ll look or feel like at either 150 or 130; I’ve never weighed that little.

It’s like a weird experiment. If I just keep going will I just keep losing? How low can I go? When I started this, I said I would have a piece of cake on my birthday. I’m not sure I will.


January 24, 2008. goals, weight, wonder. Leave a comment.