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183

I haven’t been writing here because:

  1. I haven’t been losing weight
  2. I’d been extremely busy at work, and
  3. I just came back from a much-deserved vacation in Mexico where I was on a Las Olas Surf Safari!!

The Surf Safari is something I’d wanted to do for three years. Yes, 36 months. I finally stopped weighting in October when I signed up to go so I could be there the week of my 42nd birthday.
I ate whatever I wanted. The food was good and fresh and the shrimp became a habit. The first couple of nights the bread/tortillas didn’t agree with me, but after a while nothing bothered me. I didn’t eat anything sweet for days into it; I didn’t even put syrup on the pancakes at Rollie’s! I was outside all the time, even when I was in my ‘room’ which had a terrace almost as large as my apartment with an outdoor kitchen.

And there was of course surfing!! Paddling out, popping up and falling back in, just to do it all again. It was my dream vacation.  While I did cease weighting long enough to register, weight rarely left me while there.  I noticed immediately on arrival that I was the fattest women there. And, the old I-would-be-so-much-better-at-this-if-i were-smaller stayed with me much of the time.  Getting my leg up far enough is even more difficult on water than it is on my yoga mat.

The day after getting back I weighed myself. 183. About the same as it’s been for the last month. The idea of going back to my low carb/high fat diet seemed limiting. But I know what’s best for my body now and I can’t ignore it. Sometimes I wish I could.

February 29, 2008. diet, goals, surfing, vacation. Leave a comment.

Melt

180

Not long ago I was thinking “If I can just get to 175 again, back to my New York weight, when I walked everywhere, I’ll be happy with that.” Not any more. I’m already 5lbs away from that.

I struggled to get back there for 4 years with all kinds of insane exercise regimes. Cathe’s Boot Camp 4 days a week and biking and walking all at the same time. I would have done Biggest Loser proud. Nothing. Now I’m almost there in 20 days. That’s 3/4 of a pound a day. Do I doubt I’ll be in the 170s by Saturday? I would be shocked if I weren’t at least 179.

So that goal weight of 175 seems silly now.  Should the new goal be 150, 25lbs less and 20lbs lighter than I’ve ever been?  Even if the current rate slows by half, I’d reach that goal by the end of March. So 130 by June? I have no idea what I’ll look or feel like at either 150 or 130; I’ve never weighed that little.

It’s like a weird experiment. If I just keep going will I just keep losing? How low can I go? When I started this, I said I would have a piece of cake on my birthday. I’m not sure I will.

January 24, 2008. goals, weight, wonder. Leave a comment.